Sunday, December 10, 2006

I had a bit of a meltdown today.

I'm not really certain what happened.

It could have had something to do with the fact that I got home late and didn't sleep well and then woke up to my parents calling from the airport -- ohygosh, I had forgotten to pick them up! They'd been calling since about 2am and it was 7:30am. I rushed to the airport, feeling pretty sick about it.

I didn't get much sleep, but after hearing about their awesome trip (I'll try to get up a photo album of their photos soon), they went on home and I had breakfast made for me (yay!) and I took a 2-hour nap. I felt a little better and the doors were being weather-stripped when I came back down. (YAY!)

I sat down to do bills. And suddenly I realized that there were all sorts of weird things going on. I hadn't paid them on time, or hadn't paid enough, or couldn't figure out how much was owed or why two amounts didn't jive...

And I cried.

Thinking about it now, I'm still getting emotional about it and I don't know why. Bill paying should not be an emotional issue. It's not like I don't have the money to pay (that would be emotional). It's not like I'm avoiding it, running from creditors, or anything like that.

I just feel like everything's very complicated and I got overwhelmed.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I never leant you that book called Getting Things Done did I? I mentioned it to you (I think) around this time last year at work, but I never got around to actually bringing it in. It's a great book about how to avoid feeling like this and it's a light read.