Sunday, March 27, 2011

Sometimes when you get to a crossroads, you sit there

I know that every life, every relationship, is a journey.

Sometimes it's downhill and straight. It's exhilarating. And easy. You can feel the wind in your hair, catch your breath, take a look around at the scenery. You see exactly where you're going and it's a nice ride.

And sometimes it's uphill. For a long time. And it curves so you're not really sure where you'll end up. But you keep going, because even though it would be easier to go back down the hill, you'd just end up at the bottom of the hill. And maybe you're sure that it's going to open up around the next corner. And, anyway, this is a good trip, all in all, so let's keep going.

Maybe I'm a princess or maybe I'm just really, really out of shape, but I feel like I've been going uphill for a long time and my legs are feeling like jelly. I'm wondering how much longer this trip will be.

And there's this fork in the road. (Or four or five.) And more road to go before I get where I'm going. Likely hills bigger than the ones I've just climbed.

Ugh. I'm tired. I can't do any more hills.

So I'm thinking that I need to sit here. Consider my choices. Think about which one looks the best. Stop worrying. Even though I really, really wanna get going. See where it'll all lead, because it has to be better than that hill I've just been through.

I'm looking back, though, and feeling a little embarrassed by how out of breath I am. Seems like such a small hill. I'm sure others have done more.

I think I'm going to sit here. Quietly. And just listen. Until I catch my breath. And feel good about where I'm going next.

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